26 March 2025

Why did this painting take me so long to complete? It took nearly an entire month.

When I began, I intended to paint fast and daily. By this time, I had only painted daily, sometimes as little as just fifteen minutes of time spent on it. I figured it was better than nothing and still in line with my intentions. I had completely forgotten about painting fast.

This is a painting made from me, doing the bare minimum and still meeting my goal of painting daily.

I was really struggling. Everything in me wanted to stop for a number of reasons. I settled with the minimum, and that carried into my next painting. I couldn't shake, whatever it was that was bothering me enough to throw me off course. Everything in me wanted to stop, and I settled with fifteen minutes. What is this? strength? weakness?

Sometimes I wonder if there powerful forces working around me? I believe painting itself is a spiritual act, especially when its representing Gods creations, land, air, sea. Have I awakened something within me? Directed eyes toward me? Am I sending invitations to unknown recipients? Where in the world am I?