18 August 2025 evening

This was the final landscape I completed in 2025. The sixth week where I met my goal to produce two landscapes a week. I like this one. I didn't enjoy painting it. I was too angry. I couldn't shake it, it stayed with me for the entire time I worked on this.

When I began my seventh week, I had to stop after day one. In the morning of my 7th week, I began and it only lasted fifteen minutes. My anger came through too much, the brush became a knife and the canvas a murder victim. Paint was going on too hard, too fast, the canvas was too small and not secured well enough for the energy I was using. My area wasn't able to accommodate me anymore. So I quit. I was having poor sleep, waking up with a sore jaw from clinching my teeth. I believe if I had an area large enough I would have continued to paint in this anger fueled manner.

Since 18 August 2025, I occasionally used that 15 minute anger fueled painting to paint my self portrait on. I added to that randomly and without a disciplined schedule like I was using earlier to reach my goals, as the anger was still there. My self portrait is incomplete, looks terrible and I will be leaving it that way. It feels appropriate and true. You can see that in the About section of this website.